For along long time I was walking without any goals just to keep my
life and save my self ,I wasn't care for any one .People asked "Where
is your love? Where is your girl?", I said no one could affect my heart
,but I was mistaken .I fell in love by its all meanings .When I saw you
at the first time everything had been changed ,you are looking so
delicious ,you are amazing ,you have angel eyes .When I saw all that in
the first sight ,I had lost my mind ,I didn’t feel time and place .Then
I imagined that there were voices whispered and calling my heart ,your
heart was calling ,I thought I was falling ,you pulled me close, I
couldn’t let go ,like my hands were tied .This feeling attacked me ,I
tried to fight it ,but I couldn’t ,I thought that it wasn’t love ,but
for the second time I was mistaken ,because it was the beginning of my
love.
Paaaaaaaaaaaaaart II
New life
It is the beginning of a new day, usually I wake a way without a clear
target , but it was the old beginning , now I have a new one , I wake
up after I tried to see you in my dreams , I failed this time , no
problem , because after few minutes I will see your face directly , so
I do my best to be in a good mode , and I must be at a perfect time , I
wish I could change what happened every day , but what is happened
every day , I am displaying one of them .
In a good mode at perfect time in the place which you will be at I
arrived , I made my eyes like a telescope , and I ordered them to
search for the pretty face that I prefer , there are a lot of pretty
faces , but they are not what I wanted , "be patient man you came
before your date , just wait few minutes" that's what my brain said ,
so I waited , I felt like years had gone , …… , my eyes said "she is in
the zone", my heart said "go and make happy moments", my brain said "be
patient , don't listen to your heart and think about your education", I
replied "to hell this education". Finally I stopped this conversation
and decided to tell you about my feeling to know your opinion my brain
said "ok, ok, I'm with you, but what will you say Mr. Romeo?" I said
"you are right, what will I say? I didn't arrange words to say", my
heart said "say what I say, what I feel, tell her that I keep her, I
protect her, I'm your one", I said "silence, I will say what I have". I
saw you between your friends like a queen between her servants or like
a flower between its spines you are amazing. I waited until your
friends would leave and they wouldn't , ok, I would pick up my flower
and bear the pain of this spines , my heart said "all rise man before
the end of time , she will not wait for you along the life , courage
man , you are the risky one ,do it, it isn't a big problem , you risked
with yourself before , why you do afraid now ? What's wrong with you",
I said "No, I'm not afraid, and if I risked with myself before, now I
risk with my life".
So I tried to make it at well , I said " Hi, please, I need you for a
moments", you said " Hi, no problem, what do you have ? ", I took you
from your group ( I hate them ) , I made a big mistake , I looked in
your eyes , so I was hypnotized , I went to another world which was mad
for you and me only , all that took one second , then my brain
remembered me that you were waiting me to speak , usually I forget most
of what I want to say , but I always remember that I want to tell you
about my love , I must say something , I talked with you about every
thing except for what I wanted to say trying to know if you feel me or
not , but without telling you , you finished our conversation with "
I'm sorry I have a lecture now , I must leave", I can't be selfish to
keep you with me and affect your study , so I replied sadly "go on,
take care , and I'm yours if you want any thing".
I left you , then I remembered that I didn't say all of what I wanted
to say , it was like that you had magic which affect me to forget all
of what I thought , so my heart said "never mind , it isn't the end of
the world , you have a better feeling now", then my brain remembered me
"now you must be what you are and care for your study", I told him "you
are right , but she made me in a good mode , now I can resume my study
well", my heart said "try another time , be patient , and don't forget
your feelings", I told him "I wish that the last view in my eyes is her
eyes , the last sound in my ears is her voice , and the last feeling in
my hand is the touch of her hand".
The day went and the night came , I remembered what happened all the
day like watching a recording tape , the tape remembered me what
happened with you which is happening every day while I saw you , it is
my new life which is so sweet and so tough , so sweet because I see ,
talk and care for you , so tough because I don't know if you feel me,
if you love me, if you hate me, I have no idea , so I pray every day
that you will be mine ,then I can try again because life goes on as it
never ends , another try to end this dream , any end , I will not
regret my luck , but I don't want to live a lie , because in this time
I have a clear targets that I want to make them at well , this love
weaken my insistence to finish them at the suitable time , every night
I wish my god to help me , because I can't do everything alone without
his help , so I went to my bed wishing I could achieve my aims in the
next day …………….
Wait for the third part that I will continue if ALLAH wish.
Well bye